Feeling good

Friday 24th August

Have spent the day reflecting.....

I rushed into Lakeside to get my pj's and have my eyebrows threaded and all I saw was Mum's with toddlers.  A rush of memories came flooding back..... I wish I could go back to those days.  I loved food shopping when the kids were little, the endless chatter, the smiles and the bright eyes.

I went back to work when Miss 13 was 6 months and went on mat leave when she was 4.  I regret not having those beautiful years with her and missing so many milestones.  I chose to work and at the time was the perfect choice but on reflection, was it??
When Master 9 came along, he was diagnosed with CDH so his journey was very different to our first child.  I couldn't return to work after he was born and have been a home goddess every since.  I love playing Mum, I love being Mum, seeing your babies smile at you (or roll eyes) melts my heart.  I tell my kids I am the coolest mum around :)
I'm really proud of both my babies.  Miss 13 is compassionate, loving, kind, very funny and an absolute joy to be around.  Yes, she has at times a bad attitude but never shows this when we are out.
Master 9 is loving, kind, very funny and has a  beautiful soul,   BUT he is also,  your average 9 year old little shit.

I had coffee with a close friend today, cheeky bitch asked if I can leave her my Tiffany Jewellery!  *remember to hide jewellery when she visits*
She asked me how I feel about the anesthetic.  I have NEVER been under so am feeling stressed,  as not sure what to expect.

Hubby went to the GP and yep has shingles.  Didn't I tell you we do everything together HAHA  Poor thing isn't concentrating at work,  so is painting a wall in the office today.

I have asked myself this question a few times over the years "would I change anything in my life"  "NOPE"  

Being diagnosed with BC is another hurdle to overcome and say "Bring it!"

So today I'm feeling..... calm (apart from worrying about going under a general anesthetic)

It's Friday and I'm going to top my glass to half full and enjoy some bubbles.

Be kind to yourself, if I can do it, so can you!

lots of love
Shaz xxxxxx